YO it’s January! Ridiculousssss I spent the first two weeks of January drinking a lottt.
I haven’t posted in forever. No crazy sap ass stories, no ridiculous girly ranting. 2013 ended with a bang and some vomit, lots of laughs and family. I still can’t believe it’s been a year… my blog post exactly a year ago on this tumblr was embarrassing, and miserable, but hilarious. We all get a little crazy sometimes. A year ago today, I was telling myself to have patience. I still tell myself the same thing, except with different means. By the end of 2014, I SHOULD be graduating from nursing school. I’ll be preparing myself for adulthood, and that shit is crazy. I only learned how to dance in 2013. I kind of feel like this year is a little stagnant, only because school is my priority, and right now all I can really do is pass. Read like hell, remember everything, yadda yadda be a good student. I’m not really a good student. I drink when I can, I try to keep as relaxed as possible, I chill too often and I work a little too much. Honestly, I think that’s why I’m doing well. Balance is everything. School is all I talk about, but it’s because I’m really proud of how far I’ve come. I went from not knowing at all what I wanted to do, to realizing every amazing quality of a career that I can have for the rest of my life. And i’m not really worried at all. I like being 22 and having that shit together. I like knowing at least one thing that will be there at the end of this road, because I’m going to pass, and I’m going to be awesome.
Anyways, so 2014… goals? 1. Graduate. 2. Live in the moment, not in the future. 3. Eat healthier. 4. Spread love. 5. Go to museums and galleries more often.
I am a positive motherfucker. I am also an asshole. I’m a little pretentious, but normally I’m sweet. I am patient sometimes. This year I’d like to work on strengthening my will power. Being able to say no without a heavy heart, whether it’s for favors or food. I will be nice to everyone, I will smile way more often, and I will be a lot friendlier.
I feel good. Things are looking good.
What starts in summer ends in summer… Sorry, not sorry.
Letter to self, because I know I’ll read this a year from now.
SO by this time next year you will be finishing your third semester of nursing school. You WILL [better] be in shape, most likely with two more big tattoos, [only two] and you will be happy. That’s really all I have to say to you because honestly, that’s the only goal.
At the moment you’re dating a guy who’s super sweet and soft hearted, and you’re not sure about what you want or if he’s what you want. And you don’t wanna be a bitch and lead him on to think you want more. I’m just throwing that in there because most likely you’ll be confused about what you want while you’re reading this as well. Also at the moment you’re in the process of moving into the bigger room, and i really do hope that reading this a year from now, you’ll actually be in the bigger room. Right now you’re anxious to get back to school, as you will be next year too except next year you’ll be ready to start your last semester of your undergrad, thinking about your nclex. Right now you’re 22 with the understanding that you’re still too young, and still too broad minded, You still don’t fully understand how the world is your oyster but you’re getting it.
I hope that you’re not bitter while reading this, and I hope that you’re still sweet, still optimistic, still hopeful, still objective, and still open.
<3 2013 maureen
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